Hmmmm

....I see the time thingy is out on this blog. Annoying - coz people reading it will think that I'm up at 1am! NOT - unless Bridget is awake too and ten I'm not likely to be sitting up here typing a blog post am I?! More likely soothing a crying teether or drugging up to eleviate a snotty nose.

OK - anxiety levels are OK today. I have a day off though. Million things to do but couldn;t be bothered type of feeling - but the things are not bothering me too much.

My old best friend is coming to stay with us this Friday for a week. She has her husband, a three yr old boy and a 3 mth old baby in toe. My anxiety levels will no doubt be through the roof due to a messed up routine. Hopefully there wont be any. Unfortunately Bridget's room is smack bang between Jack's and their's. If Jack disturbs her or Sophie disturbs her - then I am disturbed as well. UGH.

But, I'm trying not to think about it too much coz Bridget has surprised us in the past.

The last couple of nights Bridget has been unsettled but she is pushing throug a couple of teeth and appears to have a low grade head cold - just a small amoaunt of snot. I know it will pass soon and all will return to normal.

I'm looking forward to taking advantage of the dark mornings due to daylight savings fro a while.

I was thinking this morning that I should pop B in the pram and go for a quick walk at this time of day. She is fed breakfast at around 8am on days like these and isn;t ready for sleep till 9.30. That's heaps of time. And it might make a difference to my weight and my anxiety levels.

At night time after B has gone to bed I should go for a quick walk too by myself.

I managed to get the carpet cleaning put off till tomorrow and he is coming at 11am which is infinately better than 10am. My eye appt was put off till next Wednesday though as Kim has to be with her mum as she recovers from an operation. So, all we have to do today is swimming. I am going to have a nap this afternoon with Bridget then if all is weel we will go to the supermarket and do a shop.

See, here I go again - planning everything - when perhaps I should leave it open and save the grocery shopping till tomorrow when Rob will be home. I'm hopefully catching up with Leah tomorrow and we will have our babes weighed and measured etc.

So, all in all nothing pressing. Life is good and I should just appreciate all that it is offering. I need to stop and smell the roses every now and then. People keep telling me this but I always forget to.

Try not to get overwhelmed by the drama that is going on around you, Karelle. Your first reaction is probably to exaggerate the situation to such a degree that the facts become completely distorted. This way of dealing with problems is extremely ineffective, and actually quite immature. By clearly analyzing the facts in front of you, you will find that the issues are much less of a problem than you first thought.

hahahaha! They are my stars for today and should be advice that I am given EVERYDAY!

Anyway, must be off and take my herbs.

Ok here we go!

Right!
Anxiety levels today were pretty good.
Until this afternoon when Rob told me he could not take Wednesday off.
Which meant that Wednesday would be a totally shit day
I have the carpet cleaner coming at 10am
Totally fucked time for me as Bridget would be sleeping. I need her to sleep way past 10am so that she is in a good mood for swimming at 12noon.
Also, I have an appt at 4pm. Rob cannot get home by then either so that would mean I would have to take Bridget which I cannot. She is crawling and would cause havoc in the salon. She would be really crappy in the pram too....... unless I take something for her to munch on.....I'll come back to that idea later.

OK - so I rang the carpet cleaner guy and he said he would call me back tonight. I would prefer him to do it on Thursday - which is when Rob said he could take the day off. I fhe can do it Thursday at a time I want then it will be fine. If not then the hallway carpet does not get cleaned full stop!


I really got myself in a tizz about it all.


Why????

I said to Rob that it was because the two days that I have off work are two days that I essentially use to do stuff - catch up on stuff - have appointments - mail things, buy things, wash things, iron things.

I guess my anxiety is due to time pressures

We'll come to anxiety caused by my mother-in-law another time ha-ha!

Time pressures. I need to get this this and this done. Bridget will sleep from now till then and I need to get this this and this done. She is going to be awake from now till then, OK lets get this this and this done before she needs another sleep.

Phew! Rush rush rush! Maybe that is the problem. I have my life too structured? I'm trying to do too much? I'm too inflexible and place too much presure on myself to have everything go RIGHT!? Is that it?

I think so....

I need to change my way of thinking and I need to change the things that I do to include a bitof time out to do NOTHING! Just relax.