Ok here we go!

Right!
Anxiety levels today were pretty good.
Until this afternoon when Rob told me he could not take Wednesday off.
Which meant that Wednesday would be a totally shit day
I have the carpet cleaner coming at 10am
Totally fucked time for me as Bridget would be sleeping. I need her to sleep way past 10am so that she is in a good mood for swimming at 12noon.
Also, I have an appt at 4pm. Rob cannot get home by then either so that would mean I would have to take Bridget which I cannot. She is crawling and would cause havoc in the salon. She would be really crappy in the pram too....... unless I take something for her to munch on.....I'll come back to that idea later.

OK - so I rang the carpet cleaner guy and he said he would call me back tonight. I would prefer him to do it on Thursday - which is when Rob said he could take the day off. I fhe can do it Thursday at a time I want then it will be fine. If not then the hallway carpet does not get cleaned full stop!


I really got myself in a tizz about it all.


Why????

I said to Rob that it was because the two days that I have off work are two days that I essentially use to do stuff - catch up on stuff - have appointments - mail things, buy things, wash things, iron things.

I guess my anxiety is due to time pressures

We'll come to anxiety caused by my mother-in-law another time ha-ha!

Time pressures. I need to get this this and this done. Bridget will sleep from now till then and I need to get this this and this done. She is going to be awake from now till then, OK lets get this this and this done before she needs another sleep.

Phew! Rush rush rush! Maybe that is the problem. I have my life too structured? I'm trying to do too much? I'm too inflexible and place too much presure on myself to have everything go RIGHT!? Is that it?

I think so....

I need to change my way of thinking and I need to change the things that I do to include a bitof time out to do NOTHING! Just relax.